listen to inner silence

Monday, December 05, 2011

[2ch] 개는 바보야

[2ch] 개는 바보야




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개 「자!? 나 자도 돼!? 저기! 지금! 여기서 자도 돼!?」

주인 「그래, 자.」

개 「진짜!? 괜찮은 거야!? 나 단순히 지쳐서 그러는 건 아닌데!?

주인 「그래, 15년이나 살았으니까 이제 괜찮아.」

개 「그런가! 난 개니까! 개라서 나이 같은 건 잘 모르니까!」

주인 「그렇겠네. 잘 모르겠네.」

개 「응! 그래도 15년이나 살았어! 그렇구나! 그럼 나 이제 자도 되는 거지!」

주인 「그래그래, 그래도 돼.」」

개 「다행이다! 그럼 잘게! 푹 잘게!」

주인 「그래, 자라.」

개 「아~!15세면 완전 오래 살았던 거네! 저기, 주인님아!」

주인 「응, 이제 그만 말하고 잘 자.」

개 「아아~ 주인님아 지금 우는 거야? 웃는 얼굴로 보내 달라구!지금까지 고마웠어~!」








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개 「천국!? 여기, 천국인데!? 저기! 천국인데! 진짜로!?」

주인 「아아, 오랜만이네.」

개 「정말!? 진짜로 주인님이야!? 거짓말 아니지!?」

주인 「그래, 진짜니까 걱정 마.」

개 「그렇구나! 나는 개니까! 개라서 저세상 같은 거 잘 모르니까!」

주인 「그렇겠네. 잘 모르겠네.」

개 「응! 그래도 여기는 천국이야! 그렇구나! 그럼 이제 안 기다려도 되는 거지!」

주인 「그래그래, 안 기다려도 돼.」

개 「다행이다! 그럼 산책하자! 같이 산책하자!」

주인 「응, 산책하자.」

개 「아! 이제부터 계속 같이 있는 거지! 그렇지, 주인님아!」

주인 「응, 계속 같이 있는 거야.」

개「아~ 주인님아랑 나는 계속 같이 있구나! 행복해라~!」








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개는 정말로 바보야.

우리집 개도 죽기 직전에 의식이 없는 와중에도

내가 「산책가자」라고 했더니

꼬리를 흔들고 다리도 허우적거렸어.

그렇게까지 할 수 있으면 죽지 말고 살았어야지.

정말로 개는 바보야.

翼をください





いま私の願い事が 叶うならば
이마와타시노네가이고토가 카나우나라바
지금 내 소원이 이뤄진다면

翼がほしい
츠바사가호시이
날개를 갖고 싶어요

この背中に 鳥のように
코노세나카니 토리노요오니
이 등에 마치 새처럼

白い翼つけて下さい
시로이츠바사쯔케테쿠다사이
하얀 날개를 달아주세요

この大空に 翼をひろげ
코노오오조라니 츠바사오히로게
이 드넓은 하늘에 날개를 펼쳐서

飛んで行きたいよ
톤-데유키타이요
날아가고 싶어요

悲しみのない 自由な空へ
카나시미노나이 지유우나소라에
슬픔이 없는 자유로운 하늘로

翼はためかせ 行きたい
츠바사하타메카세 유키타이
날개짓하며 가고 싶어요




子供の時 夢見たこと
코도모노토키 유메미타코토
어릴 적에 꿈꿨던 일

今も同じ 夢に見ている
이마모오나지 유메니미테이루
지금도 마찬가지로 꿈꾸고 있어요

この大空に 翼をひろげ
코노오오조라니 츠바사오히로게
이 드넓은 하늘에 날개를 펼쳐서

飛んで行きたいよ
톤-데 유키타이요
날아가고 싶어요

悲しみのない 自由な空へ
카나시미노나이 지유우나소라에
슬픔이 없는 자유로운 하늘로

翼はためかせ
츠바사 하타메카세
날개짓하며

この大空に 翼をひろげ
코노오오조라니 츠바사오히로게
이 드넓은 하늘에 날개를 펼쳐서

飛んで行きたいよ
톤-데 유키타이요
날아가고 싶어요

悲しみのない 自由な空へ
카나시미노나이 지유우나소라에
슬픔이 없는 자유로운 하늘로

翼はためかせ
츠바사 하타메카세
날개짓하며

この大空に 翼をひろげ
코노오오조라니 츠바사오히로게
이 드넓은 하늘에 날개를 펼쳐서

飛んで行きたいよ
톤-데 유키타이요
날아가고 싶어요

悲しみのない 自由な空へ
카나시미노나이 지유우나소라에
슬픔이 없는 자유로운 하늘로

翼はためかせ 行きたい
츠바사 하타메카세 유키타이
날개짓하며 가고 싶어요


この大空に 翼をひろげ
코노오오조라니 츠바사오히로게
이 드넓은 하늘에 날개를 펼쳐서

飛んで行きたいよ
톤-데 유키타이요
날아가고 싶어요

悲しみのない 自由な空へ
카나시미노나이 지유우나소라에
슬픔이 없는 자유로운 하늘로

翼はためかせ 行きたい
츠바사 하타메카세 유키타이
날개짓하며 가고 싶어요



Thursday, October 06, 2011

Steve Jobs' 2005 Stanford Commencement Address




This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That’s it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: “We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?” They said: “Of course.” My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn’t all romantic. I didn’t have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends’ rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn’t know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down – that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I’m pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I’m fine now.

This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960′s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

Lost a visionary and creative genius. Good bye Steve!





























Did loved your black t-shirts and jeans. and New balance shoes.

Did hope you to .. just get out of all things making your heart out. (still hate the idiot BOD)

Nevertheless, Got a big energy from your endurance and return!

Loved your everything..

Thank you for releasing me from IBM and Microsoft world.


RIP my hero.







Thursday, July 28, 2011

Love is a losing game - Amy Winehouse



For you I was a flame
Love is a losing game
Five story fire as you came
Love is a losing game

Why do I wish I never played
Oh what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

Played out by the band
Love is a losing hand
More than I could stand
Love is a losing hand

Self professed... profound
Till the chips were down
...know you`re a gambling man
Love is a losing hand

Though I`m rather blind
Love is a fate resigned
Memories mar my mind
Love is a fate resigned

Over futile odds
And laughed at by the gods
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

그건 사랑이었어요

나에게 사랑하고 사랑받는 것이 뭔지 제일 처음 가르쳐 준 사람.

우리가 헤어진건. 바보같은 내 잘못이지만..

벌써 6년이 지난 지금도 다시 곱씹으며 생각해.

그건 사랑이었다고.

그리고 너만큼 날 사랑해주는 사람은 다시 없을거라고..


내 평생의 기억에 남을 단 한 사람.

잊지 못할거야. 평생 기억하고 고마워하고 미안해하며 살게..


고마워

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Tonight - Jay PARK (오늘밤 (Feat.강민경 of DAVICHI))


오늘밤 (Feat.강민경 of DAVICHI)






요새 일하는 게 힘들어
여친과는 헤어졌어
친구들을 불러내
나갈 준비를 해
샤워를 하고 난 후
말끔히 입고 난 후
아무도 날 못 말려 Baby 달려봐
아침에 출근해도 지금 신경 안써
고민은 많지만 다 집에 두고 왔어
오늘만 상관없이 밤새도록 놀아요
Everybody come on yo
Lets go
오늘밤 아무 걱정 없이
즐거운 시간을 함께 보내
오늘 난 자유롭게
Im gonna party
we aint leavin till morning
Dance Dance everybody Get up
앉지 말고 Hands up
머리위로 다같이 춤춰
Dance Dance everybody Get up
앉지 말고 Hands up
머리위로 다같이 즐겨
가만히 있질 않아 U know I be rockin
시간은 늦었지만 아침까지 Party
기분이 너무 좋아
Ah Ah Ah Tonight Ah DJ playin my song
아침에 출근해도 지금 신경 안 써
고민은 많지만 다 집에 두고 왔어
오늘만 상관없이 밤새도록 놀아요
Everybody come on yo
Lets go
오늘밤 아무 걱정 없이
즐거운 시간을 함께 보내
오늘 난 자유롭게
Im gonna party
we aint leavin till morning
Dance Dance everybody Get up
앉지 말고 Hands up
머리위로 다같이 춤춰
Dance Dance everybody Get up
앉지 말고 Hands up
머리위로 다같이 즐겨
놀아 놀아 다리의 힘 풀릴 때까지
다 놀아 I feel so high
tonight tonight tonight
DJ 음악소리 조금만 더 키워줘
I wanna party and just dance
all night yeah
기분 상할 수 없어 정말 놀고 싶었어
And tonight is the night Oh
오늘밤 아무 걱정 없이
즐거운 시간을 함께 보내
오늘 난 자유롭게
I’m gonna party
we ain’t leavin till morning
Dance Dance everybody Get up
앉지 말고 Hands up
머리위로 다같이 춤춰
Dance Dance everybody Get up
앉지 말고 Hands up
머리위로 다같이 즐겨

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Mac OS X Series 간단 정리!!!! (feat.잡스의 냥이사랑 ♡)

OS 10.7 Lion을 기다리는 몸으로서,
잡스의 고양이과 동물에 대한 사랑을 대 정리!



1. OS 10.0 Cheetah


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(OS 9에서 매우 업그레이드된 AQUA UI.
버그가 많았다지만,
어쨌든 OS X의 위대한 시초임에는 분명하다)
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가능한 한, OS 바탕화면의 치타를 구하려고 했는데
야생의 치타만 잔뜩 있어서;; 구할 수가 없음.
(하긴 10.0은 사용해보질 않아서,
구글링에서 찾았다 한들, 알 수 없었을것 같긴 한데
아마도 이게 아닐까나..?







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(늠름한 치타의 자태.
역광이 있는 사진에서 지나간 세월이 느껴지는군..)

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2. OS 10.1 Puma
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(치타에 버그가 많았던지,
푸마는 Free Upgrade였다)
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맥의 푸마 사진. 정말 구하기 힘들어서 그냥 아무 푸마사진 갖고왔다.

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(푸마는 이렇게 생긴 놈임.눈이 내려 추운가.. 소심해보인다.ㅋㅋㅋ)

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(음.. 잡스의 노골적 동물사랑..?)

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4. OS 10.3 Panther

그래. 난 팬서로 시작했지.


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기억이 가물가물한데.
팬서에도 특별한 팬서 사진이 있었던거같진 않다.
그냥 치타무늬만 좌르륵.. 했었던거같은데.
벌써 6년전이라. 기억이 ㅠ_ㅠ

어쨌든 팬서는 이리 생겼음.

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(팬서가 이렇게 생겨서, 패키지도 내 취향에 맞는 블랙임 쿄쿄쿄)



5. OS 10.4 Tiger

타이거부터 유저들이 늘어난거같다.
10.3까진 드문드문하던 정보들이 10.4부터 압도적 증가!!!

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타이거에 대한 나의 느낌은..
사실 잘 몰라서 그랬겠지만 팬서랑 별 차이가 없..
는게 아니고.
공들여 개발한 만큼, 멋진 UI들이 추가되었다!!

Spotlight, Dashboard, Automator, Mail 2, Safari RSS, QuickTime 7 등등.. 멋지구리

게다가! 이렇게 멋진 desktop picture가 있쥐용.
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6. OS 10.5 Leopard





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이때 Time Machine, Space 등이 많이 개선됐다고 하는데.
난 뭐. 큰 차이는 못느꼈음;; 미안 ㅠ_ㅠ)
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(이렇게 생기심. 얘~ 너 옷 참 예쁘구나!)



7. OS 10.6 Snow Leopard


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(드뎌 박스탑 전면모델로 등장!!!
눈을 맞아서 그릉가, 얄궂은 표정을 하고 있음 ㅋㅋㅋ)

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왜!!!!! 코믹한 느낌인지. ㅋㅋㅋ


그리고.. 바야흐로 이제 그의 시대가 오는가!!! 두둥~~~~


8. OS 10.7 Lion :2011년 7월 출시 예정!!!


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스노우 레퍼드 사용자라면!!!
앱스토어에서!!! 라이온을 구매할 수 있돠!!!


아아아아 난 너무 햄볶아용~~~♡♡♡♡♡♡

Monday, June 20, 2011

집착에서 벗어나 - 박성희의 빨간약 사용설명서 中

때로는 자기 자신을 놓아주는 일이 필요하다.
무엇인가에 혹은 누군가에게 집착하고 있는
자신을 보게 되었을 때
하지만 그런 상태에서 벗어나고 싶을 때
그럴때면 자기 자신에게서 먼저 떠날 수 있어야 한다.

그 무엇을, 그 누구를 놓는 일보다 그렇게 집착하고 있는
자신을 먼저 놓아주어야 한다.
한 걸음만 더 뒤로 물러서서,
한 걸음만 더 길게 하고,
한 뼘만 더 손을 놓고 그렇게 놓아줄 줄 알면
그 다음은 아무것도 아니다.

모든걸 놓아낼수 있다.

그렇게 특별하다 믿었던 자신이 평범은 커녕
아예 무능력하다고 느끼는 순간이 있고,
쳐다보는 것 만으로도 설레이던
이성으로부터 지루함을 느끼는 순간이 있고,
분신인듯 잘 맞던 친구로부터 정이 뚝 떨어지는 순간이 있고,
소름 돋던 노래가 지겨워지는 순간이 있고,
자기가 사랑하는 모든 것이 그저 짝사랑에 불과하다고
느끼는 순간도 있다.

삶에 대한 욕망이나 야망 따위가 시들어
버리는 순간이 있는가 하면
삶이 치명적일 정도로 무의미하게 다가오는 순간 또한 있다.

우리는 여지껏 느꼈던 평생 간직하고 싶던
그 감정은 무시한채 영원할 것 같이 아름답고 순수하던
그 감정이 다 타버 려 날아가버리는 순간에만 매달려 절망에 빠지곤 한다.

순간은 지나가도록 약속되어 있고
지나간 모든건 잊혀지기 마련이다.
어차피 잊혀질 모든 만사를 얹고
왜 굳이 이렇게 힘들어하면서 까지 살아가야 하냐는 게 아니다.

어차피 잊혀질테니, 절망하지 말라는거다